Monday, May 16, 2011

1st book out from NS

Woooo overall I like my military training lol.. I actually like my bunk mates and think I'm lucky to have them.. we are always the earliest.. however I hate my buddy so much.. I'm so unlucky to get him as my buddy.. that guy is lazy as hell!!~

Hmm in the end in the middle of night everyday, I started tearing because of you.. I miss you so much.. I don't know what to do.. I don't know what is my next goal.. I'm just going through my Life blanklessly.. Even for such a long time of being inside.. I still ask myself every night.. what really is life.. is there God.. am I fated to be like this? if there is.. will they help me?? I'm not a superstitious person but I have so many things in mind.. I need help.. but who?? no one can see my sadness in the Day.. but I'm totally a different person at Night.. :'(